It’s the day after New Years, January 2nd, and so far we are a whole two days into 2016! To be honest I’d normally write this post talking about all the resolutions and new dreams that God has laid on our hearts for this upcoming year, but to be honest I’m not really all that sure what 2016 will hold for our family.
What I do know is that I didn’t have any idea all the plans God had for us this time last year for 2015 and it turned out to be the best, most rewarding, fulfilling, exhilarating, love, joy and grace filled year of our lives thus far.
What I do know is that we welcomed 2016 quietly in the safety and comfort of our own home together just the three of us, cuddling on the couch as we watched the ball drop with our 3 week old baby daughter and then we began it by praying over her brand new life and the life of our family for this upcoming year.
What I do know is that they say how you begin the new year is how you will spend the next year of your life, and thus far the majority of 2016 has been spent with my best friend, my husband, my Mr. Pomeroy, loving on our daughter, Annabelle, and one another, as God bonds us together as a family.
What I do know is that there have been some of the most tender, peaceful moments snuggling and nursing her by the glow of Christmas lights in the still, silent, darkness of the middle of the night/early morning.
What I do know is that there have been some sleepless nights where a lot of grace was given and received between the three of us as we relied on God to help us navigate this new facet of our family.
What I do know is that I am amazed by how I am more in love with Matt now then I ever have been before, and how that love just continues to climb with no peak insight. That every time I watch him hold, change, feed, play, whisper “I love you” or rock our daughter in his arms my heart expands with more love then I ever knew it could possibly hold, and I don’t see how it could possibly keep growing without bursting all over the place, but some how it astounds me every time, and it simply does.
What I do know is that when all else seems to fail to sooth Annabelle, pressing her up as close as she can be against my chest and rocking her back and forth, while patting her bottom and singing her the same lullabies that her daddy and I played every night for her while she was in my tummy for 9 months, without fail will instantly stop the tears, relax her tiny frame and bring comfort to her mind, as she nuzzles in closer and then holds my heart tighter then I ever imagine any one that small possibly could.
What I do know is that it’s in moments like these, when I doubt my ability to be her mother, that God reminds me how He carefully hand picked me for the job. That He purposefully gave us to each other to help us grow and learn from one another in love.. and He doesn’t make mistakes. That no I am not perfect by any means but I am chosen, and if He hand crafted her and I to fit together then who I am to say other wise. Because who else could calm her instantly with just the touch of their hand? Who else does she instantly stop and listen to when she hears the sound of their voice? Just me, her mother.
What I do know is that it’s not bad to have goals or a game plan, but be flexible. Because in my personal experience, it seems that when you try to make and keep plans without allowing yourself flexibility for circumstances and situations to change you are only short changing yourself for the grander plan that God has for your life. And it’s those unexpected detours that make life so much sweeter as a result.
So here’s to 2016. To all the new works that God has already begun or will begin in this fresh year of life! To all the things that are known or unknown. To all the ways we will learn, grow and ultimately change throughout the next 363 days. To the story of our lives that is being written by the greatest Author and told by the greatest story teller there ever was. I know I personally can’t wait to see all that He has in store for us in this upcoming year, even the surprises… actually, especially the surprises! 🙂
Much love & prayer,
Matt & Blair